It is in this season, in this year, that I recall you, shadow of a failed relationship marking the end of a cycle. We journeyed long together and though starting again, I will miss you. In these days when Saturn squares Neptune, here are my last words that I scatter now to the Autumn winds.
October Tarot Poem: Incarnation is not a god
Now lost in time I remember you in my veins as a god
the unexpected time, oh foolish love
you came as pure love into my ruined day.
I darted toward you sure as wind
for the containers we were.
ash-filled remnants of youthful passion
Stilled by love and loss
by warble and howel
our hearts hallowed and filled
remembering the warmth
kindling to flame
again and again.
Oh human soul
be still and know your god.
Now we stand separated on a sunset shore
hearing nocturnal petals close in our hearts.
We were given the cup of first love
desire springing from dreams
green pen on lavender paper
celebrating each other
penned words of joy
music pouring into our wondering souls
all stumbling stilled.
yet then rising out of the wave’s thrust
the trident rose
splitting our tongues
bringing down fire and storm
the crashing wave after the throbbing crest.
When love fails
the monsters of the deep
begin their own jab and thrust
lampoons tied to the body
and with them, we rise.
As the last whisper of leaves
and the glance of setting sun
glows wild and wicked
I wonder if failing can live without threat,
ages and ages of threat.
Now you arrive
making pathless ways as shadows shroud.
I feel rain blurring the water colour
on the persistent canvas of my soul.
We are separate
Yet we are together
here in a confusion
a confounding unity.
You are my deep body
in which you took shape.
You are here again embracing my angry widowhood
and you sprout wings under your flowing cloak
mix potions with sunset eyes.
Death arrives as this winter gathers
and all things flow between our brimming cups.
I bring avocados
to celebrate our fleeting last moment together
and I know
incarnation is not a god.
by Lutia Lausane, copyright Just Peachy Productions 17 December 2015